Day Four and Five

Day Four

Oh last night was not so good!!! Up all night with John (I think the Benadryl had an opposite affect on him) and with Issac because he was having nightmares. I know I will miss these days but this morning we were dragging.... on top of that I took him to urgent care (for a quick visit) we waited over 2 hours ... not cool with a 3 year old. I have to say for John lacking sleep he was extremely patient and I was so proud of him. These days are a real struggle for me. My checklist is not getting crossed off, my house is dirty, I'm tired and just getting by, for goodness sake I need a shower and a nap. But at some point yesterday I just looked into the sun, for some reason I find God there, maybe it's because it pierces right through me. You know how if you look directly at the sun it's painful but beautiful all wrapped up in one... Maybe that's how looking at God is? So there I was on the porch looking at the sun through the trees and I just said okay God this is not my day its Your day! What do you want me to do because I have nothing left right now to give these wild boys of mine ... and I sat there listening to them playing with each other, loving each other, in the leaves and mud of our backyard ... I thanked God for the stillness in the chaos. I thanked him for Matthew, Issac and John. Then I got up and played with my kids in the leaves. We had the best time ... everything else could wait another day!


Breakfast: Coco Smoothie
Lunch: Tuna Salad (straight from the bowl)
Snack: Almonds
Dinner: Thai Express

Day Five

Today we went back to the doctor but instead went to our regular doctor. Last night John had his first night terror ... and we didn't recognize it until I was in her office explaining it. Issac has them about 3 times a week. But this was different and unexpected ... isn't it funny we can be so familiar with things but when its out of context we can be blind to it.

Tonight we had our annual women's gathering and it was wonderful! There was a part of me that wanted to stay home and not be social ... being drained this week will do that to me. But I went and had a wonderful time ... truth was spoken, hearts were filled and good friends gathered. Life is good indeed. My friend Sydney spoke on handling stress in the life of faith and how we can think of what our heart needs to prevent depletion.

Breakfast: Sausage, Spinach, Onion Egg Bake
Lunch: Tuna Salad
Dinner: Caveman Chili with Cauli-Rice